Thank you N

It finally ended on a warm balmy night.
When he finally left us, the rain poured.
Maybe he left me earlier when I was not looking
Or was not minding that he tip toed out of that room
and finally was freed from all the pain and suffering.
That was what I was afraid of,
That I didn't see him.
I was looking hard.
But I didn't see him.
I wished I looked at him for soul and spirit.
Not just body and function.
But he was bigger than me in terms of soul.
I know that because he is on my mind and I am crying.
I did not conquer him but he conquered me.
For so little a body he had so much soul and spirit.
I grope for reasons why it is so hard to get what you want.
But the present has no reasons and answers.
The reasons and answers will just come in time.

Thank you N for coming into my life.

Bonds shared by mortal men last longer than time.